A true friend is worth billion and zillion of it.This is the first picture that we shot together,which may be the last.(I look pathetic in this picture,but that's not the point).
If I gave you the URL to this link,There are somethings I would like you to know and If you just found the link here,no harm,no foul,but how fitting is it that my blog's song is The story of us,which I would like to talk about.
The first thing I came back home after I went out,I sat down in front my laptop.I was wondering why I made that promise to myself,I wished I could turn back time to 21th October,back when we were best of friends.
I feel that it would only be right if I tell you the truth.Nope,we are not quarreling nor having a fight.Pei Hao has always been a brother to me.Truth be told,He has always been there for me,but Me?I have always been an A**hole in the whole friendship.
The only reason,we were able to stay friends for so long,was probably because My negativity fits his positivity.Unlike charges attract.
It all started when I got a little(Okay,maybe not a little,maybe very) jealous of the study group they formed and overlooking me.
I blame him for everything,which ends up in Someone(I shall not disclose) having to text this message
This is what she typed(and deeply appreciated,by the way):
Stop pestering and harassing Pei Hao(oops,did I miss out somebody?).Those study sessions are planned by me.The number of heads going are decided by me.Stop sending them nonsensical messages(We'll skip to the interesting part now,shall we?)Leave everybody alone and grow up.Reflect maybe. I find you really juvenile. This issue can't get any larger alright, but you amazingly made it.
The first thought I had was "juvenile,huh?It is usually used for a kid,so she meant that I'm Immature?".I knew I needed to(How did she put it?) grow up,so I decided to Google the values of an adult and the first was trustworthy,so I made my first vow to be trustworthy and to keep my words.
Next,"Leave everybody alone" was a phrase that made me irate,so in my defense,I sent back
:That's where you're right,I'm gonna leave them alone.
I knew I was making the biggest mistake of my life,but I knew I would have to eat my words,but I'm gonna keep it.
The next day,I sent Pei Hao a message telling him,we were just gonna be strangers,nothing more.I knew he didn't like my decision,but it had to happen,or I'll be treated as a kid.
On this very day,I went walking down memory lane,walked through the place where we have always gone,but in an alley,I met Kok Hui,Yong Meng and Pei Hao,I knew he was the only one that saw me,but I hung my head as low as the belly of the earthworm ,this is how I'm gonna look if I ever walk past him again.
I knew I had to make a clean breast out of it,so I went to bid farewell as that's the only thing I could do,We shared respect,love,admiration,and fun.
"If you know me,you'll know what I'm thinking" That's what made me realise I don't know him.
I figured he wanted me to be friends once again.
He asked "That's all only?" as though he had accepted it and not expecting more out of it.
"That's all,Have a good day" I replied with my head hung low once again and left.
No matter how many,"Thank you" and "sorry" I gave,I felt that it was never enough.I just can't force myself to break the vow I made,so I hope he'll understand.
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