adVENTURED

On 12 March 2011,I went for my 6th consecutive jobweek,which happens every year.That day I became the top scorer on day 1 for the first time in 6 years.


To me,it was really unexpected,because Jun Yan,Xun Wei and I plotted to be on par for our Jobweek,to see how they would divide the gifts.I accidentally messed up Zheng Xu's earning,because he went to work.


On the 2nd day,Dao Yong topped the venture unit with 180bucks.I won the overall Jobweek,by 2 dollars for the first time in my 6 year of scouting.


That is not the reason for my blog entry.I just wanted to talk about the last day.I just really felt that I had no power or whatsoever in Ventures.I took an observation at my fellow ventures.


When I went to the front,Jun yan told me there wasn't a need for so many leaders to be in the front,go back and fall in,so I went all the way to the back,then noticed how the venture unit had no discipline,like moving when falling in and the scout treated us as rolemodel.Zheng Xu turned around and face the remaining Venture unit like the venture chairperson.


"Why are you facing us?"I asked Zheng xu
"Why can't I face you?"He replied,then continue to stand at the same position,before deciding to change.




At that moment,I felt that everything I have ever accomplished,all my accolades,it meant nothing,I felt that I was nothing.

Later,I was given the task to facilitate the cleaning of toilet,which I felt that I was pushed to level ground,I feel I'm nothing in the Elite seal,just another Clown,nothing else.


What first attracted me to Ventures was the PSA,the highest acheivement anyone could get,now it is a pipe dream to me now.Nobody is doing anything to get it,so I have lost my purpose in staying any further.

I have decided to take a break from venturing and go play with my band,probably a tour.I'm not leaving,but I'm only going to be back if I can find a purpose to stay.